Just another day

It is very difficult to loose any thing of value.

It is especially difficult if the thing is a living breathing object (most difficult being a loved one which is not the content of this entry).

There are some who say a farmer becomes insensitive or callous when it comes to harvesting or culling herds or flock. I believe that it is the realization that the strong preserve the species (profit) and the weak will die sooner (loss). As any good business person knows it is imperative to stay in the black.

So, what do we really have invested and what investment is it worth into any particular aspect of the farm? There are exceptions to every rule. A favorite dog, cat, cow, goat, sow, horse as you can see there is a point to this.

How much does one invest (spend) to save a pet. Being realistic and with children and high taxes to pay and realizing the replacement costs of the original animal I have in my minds eye a very specific target. Others who have disposable income or little outside interests can get carried away with how much they invest in an animal or pet. I have, in the not to distant past, lost my beloved Rottweiler. The vet suggested (fraud in any other form?) that I have him go through chemo and the such to help him live another 6-12 months. The tune was 5000.00. We will run it through your health insurance. I have children the farm and of course where I live and trying to make ends meet. There was no option, on decision, just the heart wrenching guilt that "I didn't love my Rottie" according to the veterinarians implied remarks and termination of Doctor client relations (oh boy a topic for another rant).

It is even more difficult if you have sheltered your children from the experience of death and haven't let them learn how to grieve. The children expect you to spend absorptive amounts of money to "SAVE" whomever the pet is. How can you say no? When do we realize that grief has a price tag? Loneliness has a price tag. I'm sure it is quality of life not quantity of life all of us reach for. Visit an elder care facility and tell me the drugged limp creatures that need to be rolled so they don't develop sores would think their quality of life was wonderful. This is why we have living wills, (pull the plug please).

Reeves (his first name escapes me) who broke his neck in a horse riding accident had the money (disposable income) to maintain a level or quality of life that he felt was acceptable.......or was it his wife and family? Can you imagine the stess, how depressed he was, can't be good for any care taker. When he died (bedsore infection) she died 18 months later (lung cancer). Do you think stress played a roll?

Back to the animals. If you have animals love them and care for them as they deserve. I would highly recommend that you not spend monies that will keep you in debt to save a life whose quality may not be the best. Learn how to grieve and not to guilt. There is a big difference.

So your saying what the heck is this all about you babbling idiot? Well yesterday I spent three hours digging a very large hole for my neighbors rescued Primerian Mare. An animal who had lived an awful life but who's last year was wonderful. An animal of compromised Constitution but never the less loved and cherished. It was obvious (to me anyway) that there was a lot going on with this animal. I am not say she was neglected but she was a large draft type who was an easy keeper, gentle and had given up her head of herd position. The horse knew, the owner didn't. A couple of incidents and conformation issues I noticed but never mentioned. I have been told I am a control freak, obnoxious, over bearing, opinionated, so I now say "well if it were mine this is what I would do" or "I can tell you what I would do if it were mine" (besides your gonna die). This gives people the chance to ask my opinion or not. These days I prefer not.

So end of story. They didn't ask, I didn't tell, just gave the support asked for (OK, maybe a little more). The mare died, I knew she may not have gotten the treatment I would have given her, but to the same end. They are a 1000.00 in the red after making her spend an agonizing night trying to keep her alive.

I dug the hole and buried her. Careful to move the rock from under her head, place her legs in a comfortable position. Cover her with a tarp and put dirt over her to prevent the rocks from hitting her. Every time I bury an animal it seems I relive all the loved ones I have ever lost. It is not the death that brings the tears it is the absence in my heart and hand that bring on renewed grief.

Election time "down at the Farm"

If you hadn't noticed lately the time to pick a new president is upon us. I have been referred to the ten percentile, the people who haven't made up their minds yet.
So Sue Me! No I don't stand outside when it rains and look up! I am tired of the same old politics. (Hold onto your hat here it comes......)

Why is it that almost a Billion dollars has been spent on an office that pays 400,000.00 a year. One candidate has raised eight times the amount of the other candidate. Am I supposed to be naive enough to think that the cronyism won't be out for those who contributed. I would love to see the breakdown of who contributed what!

Neither candidate has the stand on issues that I feel are important:
First! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE WAR IN IRAQ? They have been reporting on the WOMD recovered and the Mass Media has taken a back seat to recording this? What is going on over there, how are our troops doing, when can they come home?

Second! Why are we bailing out a bunch of people who created a catastrophe due to greed? No one is going to jail over this? Let me see if I can get away with it and see where I end up.

Third! Energy. Will someone please take us to the next level and fund and grant monies to American companies that are creating affordable wind and solar power and other alternative types of energies. Lets not drill yet......

Fourth! Why is it that the government elected officials keep granting themselves raises when I can barely scratch out a living? They only work a third of the year and are way overpaid as it is.

Fifth! Abortion. Its a women's body don't let the government tell her what to do with it. Which brings up number .........

Six! Education. No child left behind? Is this why both my children are now home schooled? The local elementry school could afford new paving, carpeting, speed trenches, metal security gates, a front door security lock and yet my daughter who is going into fourth grade can not read or comprehend Math? (yes, I am foaming at the mouth right now!!!!).

Easy now.......calm down.......breathe......in through the nose........out through the mouth.........

It seems we have little control out of our out of control government. Excersice you right to vote. Just do it.

Right about now I will excersice my right to a cool, damp (yet invigorating) afternoon of animal care. Enjoy the spectacular fall foliage. Help those who want to be helped (has that cow calved yet), who give back to our system. Who serve our system and ask for little in return (dairy goats are so non demanding). Those who make our farm work with team effort (yes piggies drink your milk and eat your eggs). I don't have any problem shipping those who don't participate (stinkin ducks).

If only our government could see how lost they have become.